"You are the light of the world, A city set on a hill cannot be hidden." - Matthew 5:14
I can admit it. This past week has been one of the hardest weeks I've had in a long time...I've thought about dropping out of college, changing my major (even though I know I'm called to be a teacher), I thought about giving up on everything and every opportunity in my life. My absolute main goal in life is to A) have a healthy happy family and B)to help children..I dream to one day open an orphanage and home school my kids, to make them a better living in a third world country.
I never thought I would be one to even think about throwing in the towel on all of my hopes and dreams in life, but this week, I was so close. I had it all set up, I wasn't gonna go back to college. I was going to change my major to business administration, transfer to a tech school and become an event planner.. and for the rest of my life, I can assure you, I would have regretted it.
I'm depressed. That's what it is. I went to Winona last semester, and this semester transferred to UWL. All of my friends (old and new) went back to Winona, and I, I was left here. Now while there are many reasons that I came back to LaCrosse, part of me is still in Winona, with my girls. But physically, I'm here. My best friend and I have planned to live together since the second grade, and guess what? She's in Winona.
After a long conversation with my dad (the only person I felt I could turn to), he reassured me that everything will be okay. If I don't become a certified teacher, my dreams of homeschooling my orphan kids, won't come true <3. If I don't go to college now, when will I? I need to do something for myself and this, this is it. K-12 education major, here I come. Minor in child advocacy? Sounds perfect. Volunteer like I've always wanted to? Why not?! Get a job? okay.
If it crosses your mind at all, a prayer or two would be nice, 'cause I don't know what else to turn to at this point. <3
I am slowly coming back around, but this time...it's hard and I don't understand why. Something got in my head, and I'm not so scared of my future. I might not know what's going on in Christine world....but I know that eventually..it'll all come together. And my future, it'll be what I make it.
So, here's to moving forward. Here's to stepping on the edge even though I'm so scared. Here's to moving on with my life and doing something for me.
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Thursday, April 25, 2013
New Beginings
"You are the light of the world, A city set on a hill cannot be hidden." - Matthew 5:14
It's been a while since I've posted one of these, and I'm not proud of it. I've been falling behind but thank God I'm done. I am now focused on Christ. <3
Lately, life has been throwing obstacles in my path and I've been letting them come between me and my God. I've let these obstacles separate me from the person who matters the MOST in my life. Recently I've put my foot down, and decided that this has to stop. I've drawn the line. Not in sand, but in concrete...it can not be changed. My mind is made up. God is MY God. &Nothing is worth getting in the way of my walk with Christ.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths." - Proverbs 3:5-6
I have made a personal decision that I will follow the Lord all of the days of my life. I will not turn away. If I rely on other people or myself for my happiness, I will be let down every single time. If I rely on God for my happiness, I will never be let down, and I will be happy all the days of my life. I have been reading the bible and praying once again every morning, and I feel like a new person. <3
Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. Psalm 119:105
Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. - James 4:7
I have recently completely submitted myself to God. I feel so much happier, and once again I am enjoying life. I have new people and people who have always been there for me in my life, who are helping me in my walk with the Lord. Some may not know it, but I look up to them with my whole heart and I aspire to be like them someday. My parents are the most supportive people I know and they're my best friends. I respect them with all my heart and I thank them for everything I have in life.
People may look at me different, as I know I am not a typical 18 year old. But in reality, when everything comes down to it, I don't care. I am not ashamed of my God, I love him with all of my heart and no one will ever take his place in my heart.
For I am not ashamed of this Good News about Christ. It is the power of God at work, saving everyone who believes. - Romans 1:16
I love the Lord with all my heart, and nothing will ever stop me. Make the Lord number one in your heart, and just watch how much your life changes. <3
*My mind is set on the Lord my God. Forever and always (:
It's been a while since I've posted one of these, and I'm not proud of it. I've been falling behind but thank God I'm done. I am now focused on Christ. <3
Lately, life has been throwing obstacles in my path and I've been letting them come between me and my God. I've let these obstacles separate me from the person who matters the MOST in my life. Recently I've put my foot down, and decided that this has to stop. I've drawn the line. Not in sand, but in concrete...it can not be changed. My mind is made up. God is MY God. &Nothing is worth getting in the way of my walk with Christ.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths." - Proverbs 3:5-6
I have made a personal decision that I will follow the Lord all of the days of my life. I will not turn away. If I rely on other people or myself for my happiness, I will be let down every single time. If I rely on God for my happiness, I will never be let down, and I will be happy all the days of my life. I have been reading the bible and praying once again every morning, and I feel like a new person. <3
Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. Psalm 119:105
Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. - James 4:7
I have recently completely submitted myself to God. I feel so much happier, and once again I am enjoying life. I have new people and people who have always been there for me in my life, who are helping me in my walk with the Lord. Some may not know it, but I look up to them with my whole heart and I aspire to be like them someday. My parents are the most supportive people I know and they're my best friends. I respect them with all my heart and I thank them for everything I have in life.
People may look at me different, as I know I am not a typical 18 year old. But in reality, when everything comes down to it, I don't care. I am not ashamed of my God, I love him with all of my heart and no one will ever take his place in my heart.
For I am not ashamed of this Good News about Christ. It is the power of God at work, saving everyone who believes. - Romans 1:16
I love the Lord with all my heart, and nothing will ever stop me. Make the Lord number one in your heart, and just watch how much your life changes. <3
*My mind is set on the Lord my God. Forever and always (:
Monday, June 4, 2012
"You are the light of the world, A city set on a hill cannot be hidden." -
Matthew 5:14
Lately, i've been thinking about a close friend of mine that passed away. Audra Bena, the nicest, most sincere girl a person could ever meet. Summer going into my freshman year in highschool, we all found out that she had a brain tumor right on her brain stem, making it impossible for them to do surgery. We kept her in our prayers and she fought a strong fight for two years. July 11, 2010..Audra stepped into heaven, and ever since she's been smiling down on us. :)
I remember when i found out that she passed. I was sitting in church, and my best friend texted me..she knew i had church..why did she text me? It must have been important, so I looked at my phone to read "Ohmygod Christine, I need you. Audra passed away last night." I ran out of the sanctuary and into the bathroom where i fell, right into a beautiful ladies arms. (Judith<3) That was one of the hardest things of my liife. Ushers were sent into the sanctuary to get my mom, all they told her was..'your daughter needs you, shes in the bathroom.' my mom rushed in to find me crying on a chair..she cried and we shared tears.
The wake and the funeral were next. Oh boy, i was doing okay until i hugged Mrs.Bena. Then, i lost it. Loosing a friend isnt easy, well..loosing anyone isnt easy..but yes, it does happen. The funeral came and i was sitting by the closest people in my liife. Crying, confused, and frustrated...we all held eath other close and supported one another.
Not a day goes by that I dont think about Audra, and the huge impact she left on all of us <3
This blog isnt about everything that happened, it was a huge learning expierience for me. When i found out she passed away, i got mad..(excuse my french) i was pissed. Not at my family, friends, not at anyone here...i was mad at God. For about a month i blamed him for her passing away. Why would he take such a sweet innocent girl? I didnt go to church as much, i thought of every excuse to stay home.. all i wanted to do was be mad and not talk to anyone. So, that's what i did.
Being alone, mad, and sad....for too long leads to depression. And wow, did it hit me. I cried myself to sleep, i'd talk to my parents...and get mad for no reason, leave the room and not come back all night. Finally, one day..my mom pulled me aside and asked what was up. I told her everything. Why would God take Audra? Why, out of all people, would he choose her? Did he need another angel? I was obviously confused.
I am the Gate. Anyone who goes through me will be cared for—will freely go in and out, and find pasture. A thief is only there to steal and kill and destroy. I came so they can have real and eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of. John 10:10
God doesn't take people's lives, he wants us all to be healthy and live for him every day of our lives. Sure, people die, but God didnt just decide, 'Oh i'll make you have cancer, and you will die.' uhmm..no? lol The DEVIL comes to kill steal and destroy. When my mom showed me that verse, i realized...i shouldnt be mad at God? I should be mad at the devil.
After repenting and asking for forgiveness, i started going to church and involving myself again. I still think about her and love her and miss her, but now...im not AS upset. She's free of pain, suffering, crying and fighting..for all i know she's with horses running in fields just like she loved to do here.
Never blame God for bad things that happen to you, it's not Him who made it happen to you.
I love you all. You're all beautiful, and you mean the world to someone out there. :)
I remember when i found out that she passed. I was sitting in church, and my best friend texted me..she knew i had church..why did she text me? It must have been important, so I looked at my phone to read "Ohmygod Christine, I need you. Audra passed away last night." I ran out of the sanctuary and into the bathroom where i fell, right into a beautiful ladies arms. (Judith<3) That was one of the hardest things of my liife. Ushers were sent into the sanctuary to get my mom, all they told her was..'your daughter needs you, shes in the bathroom.' my mom rushed in to find me crying on a chair..she cried and we shared tears.
The wake and the funeral were next. Oh boy, i was doing okay until i hugged Mrs.Bena. Then, i lost it. Loosing a friend isnt easy, well..loosing anyone isnt easy..but yes, it does happen. The funeral came and i was sitting by the closest people in my liife. Crying, confused, and frustrated...we all held eath other close and supported one another.
Not a day goes by that I dont think about Audra, and the huge impact she left on all of us <3
This blog isnt about everything that happened, it was a huge learning expierience for me. When i found out she passed away, i got mad..(excuse my french) i was pissed. Not at my family, friends, not at anyone here...i was mad at God. For about a month i blamed him for her passing away. Why would he take such a sweet innocent girl? I didnt go to church as much, i thought of every excuse to stay home.. all i wanted to do was be mad and not talk to anyone. So, that's what i did.
Being alone, mad, and sad....for too long leads to depression. And wow, did it hit me. I cried myself to sleep, i'd talk to my parents...and get mad for no reason, leave the room and not come back all night. Finally, one day..my mom pulled me aside and asked what was up. I told her everything. Why would God take Audra? Why, out of all people, would he choose her? Did he need another angel? I was obviously confused.
I am the Gate. Anyone who goes through me will be cared for—will freely go in and out, and find pasture. A thief is only there to steal and kill and destroy. I came so they can have real and eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of. John 10:10
God doesn't take people's lives, he wants us all to be healthy and live for him every day of our lives. Sure, people die, but God didnt just decide, 'Oh i'll make you have cancer, and you will die.' uhmm..no? lol The DEVIL comes to kill steal and destroy. When my mom showed me that verse, i realized...i shouldnt be mad at God? I should be mad at the devil.
After repenting and asking for forgiveness, i started going to church and involving myself again. I still think about her and love her and miss her, but now...im not AS upset. She's free of pain, suffering, crying and fighting..for all i know she's with horses running in fields just like she loved to do here.
Never blame God for bad things that happen to you, it's not Him who made it happen to you.
I love you all. You're all beautiful, and you mean the world to someone out there. :)
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
The Whole Truth
"You are the light of the world, A city set on a hill cannot be hidden." -
Matthew 5:14
Feeling out of place, is a common feeling; Especially when you go through something devastating.
In this post..ill be sharing my whole story, not just the little 'this is what happened' either. It'll be the whole thing. I dont want you to feel bad for me, cause quite frankly, i get it too much. Just read and learn from other peoples mistakes. :) I want to help you, let me. This is gonna be long...and im sorry, but its my story...my testimony.
"Children, do what your parents tell you. This is only right. "Honor your father and mother" is the first commandment that has a promise attached to it, namely, "so you will live well and have a long life." -Ephesians 6:1-3
Alright, so this is where it started, freshman year. I was way too 'cool' to listen to my parents..when in reality..it was stupidity. Wrong friends, they lead you no where. The saying 'what you hang around, is what you become' became my reality. Swearing, became a part of my vocabulary. Drinking, sadly, was the weekend 'thing to do.' No, i never did smoke, thank God.
"Don't become partners with those who reject God. How can you make a partnership out of right and wrong? That's not partnership; that's war." - 2 Corinthians 6:14
December of freshman year, i was noticed by a junior boy. He told me everything a girl would ever want to year. At first my parents were okay with it, but secretely i kept things from them. His criminal record, his abusive habbits, and most importantly..his history with girls. We fought, like every other day. After dating hiim for about 6 months, my parents found out. Everything. They told me to stay away from him, but i was smarter than them. I 'loved' him. lol no. In reality i didnt know what love was. We dated two years, and in my mind (now that i look back on it)...those two years were straight from Hell. If a guy EVER cheats on you...leave; trust me, they'll do it again. After getting cheated on 3 times, you think i would get the hint...but i didnt.
They say, 'bad actions lead up to bad situations' and holy crap, that is soo true. I wish i could tell every teenager that making bad choices will only lead lead you to bad situations.
January 31, 2011. The day my life was changed. My eyes were opened, and i had had enough. What started as a day of shopping with my best friend and my boyfriend...ended in a nightmare. I dropped her off at her house first, then i went to take him home; when he grabbed the wheel and wouldnt let me go to his house i knew something was wrong. I parked my car on a street...and there i was 2nd Degree sexually assaulted. Saving my life, my mom called and he freaked. I owe my life to her. <3 truely. He ran to his house yelling "Dont get into too much trouble!" and left me there, alone..i thought he loved me?..guess not. I answered, trying to come up with excuses of where i had been. Trying to cover up what he did. It worked at first, but, the second i stepped into my house i broke down. Telling my parents everything, they called the cops and the next day he was arrested until the first hearing.
Guess what? They let him back in school...i was so confused, frustrated and mad.. How can you let him in the same place that im in after that. What is wrong with these people? They promised me he would stay away, but nothing was holding him back.. him getting yanked away from me by the assistant principle...was the last straw for me. I couldn'd do it anymore. That was the first day/night that i ever thought of ending my life. Therapy started, and i told her day after day i was fine. I was numb. Crying myself to sleep every night, made my parents worry. Finally, August 12, 2011. The guy i thought i loved, finally pleaded guilty. I couldnt have been happier...but even though he admitted to it...he was still free. Confusion flooded my mind. This was the third night, i considered ending my life. Which really is...three to many. No one should ever have to feel that way. Ever.
Throughout this whole mess.. I felt alone, scared, and most of all i felt numb. School, was the hardest thing i ever had to face. People calling me a liar, screaming at me in the halls, and threatening to 'beat my...butt..'.. I spent almost everyday with my coulselor crying, and wanting to go home..but i wanted to be strong for my parents, for my friends, and for my church. I couldnt let them see i was hurt..that wasnt me. But at some point, you break and everything comes out. I couldnt hold it in anymore...i had to do something. One scar on my arm shows how weak i got. I set a match on fire...blew it out..and burned my arm. No one knows this, not even my parents, and i cant believe im going to post this...but it will help someone out there.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uhOJW4Uwy3c
I found the nearest counselor at the youth retreat i was at, a beautiful woman of God, the second person i owe my life to. We prayed and prayed...for forever it felt like, i cried my eyes out and finally...i felt peace flood my mind. My life was changed for the second time in one year. Clear thoughts filled my mind. I was happy, i felt i belonged once again.
August 15, 2011...a text from an unknown number, "hey, i miss you" was in my inbox. I stared at it for almost an hour. Did this really just happen, it was him...again. I let him back in my life. I hung out with him and started dating him...again. August 28, 2011. A picture was posted on facebook of us together..my parents were devastated. He won me back. I was grounded for sooooo long after that. No phone, car, friends, anything. My life included church, school, and sleep...for 3 months. December 21, 2011. He was put in jail...locked up, i felt free. Oh how i loved my life, hes finally where he belonged. I got involved in church...2 church youth groups actually...and my life was once again, changed.
February 28, 2012...hes out of jail. Thoughts once again, brewed up...why? will this ever end? No, it wont. But im not about to let him win. I will be a successful person, nothing will hold me back. Dont worry, this time...im smart. My mind is renewed..im getting help from SO many people. Im stronger with the Lord...stronger than i've ever been. I prayed, and God set me free.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&NR=1&v=Y2HwtWLokSc
Im fresh. I wouldnt trade my life for the world. Im happy, and i am in love with my God. I turned my life over to him, and im free. I surround myself with positive influences and they help me through everything. I know i could trust them with my life.
Never let a guy, take over your life, and decide what you do/think for almost 3 years. I wish, with everything in me, i could have those years back.
To everyone who stuck by my side through the past year, you're truly my hero. If it wasnt for you, i may not be here today. I love you with all my heart, and i would do ANYTHING in this world for you. My Lord and Saviour, i love you with my whole heart. Mom and Dad, if i didnt have you...i would've been a lost puppy. You held me, loved me, calmed me down...but most importantly..you believed in me. I would like to thank my youth misister, i couldnt have made it without you..you and your wife believed in me...and supported me more than i could have ever asked for. My friends, wow...you showed how close we were/are everyday in and out of school...yelling at the people who yelled at me while i ran to get help, hugging me when i cried, and staying by my side throught everything really meant the world to me. My church family, you may not know it...but church was the one place i could go to...and let loose. I trusted all of you, and loved you.
I am a changed young adult now. I grew up fast...but im glad i did. God is amazing if you let him in your life, so do it. Dont be ashamed, cause you will never regret it. He's amazing...and he's one of the only people who will love and forgive you NO matter what you do.
You're all beautiful in my eyes, and in God's. Never.ever.ever.ever.ever.ever. let .Anyone.ever tell you different. I love you all <3 soso much.
These songs...are now my secret escape.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eAfyFTzZDMM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=776TdGu0bNo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xXJv6Fxi074&feature=related
Feeling out of place, is a common feeling; Especially when you go through something devastating.
In this post..ill be sharing my whole story, not just the little 'this is what happened' either. It'll be the whole thing. I dont want you to feel bad for me, cause quite frankly, i get it too much. Just read and learn from other peoples mistakes. :) I want to help you, let me. This is gonna be long...and im sorry, but its my story...my testimony.
"Children, do what your parents tell you. This is only right. "Honor your father and mother" is the first commandment that has a promise attached to it, namely, "so you will live well and have a long life." -Ephesians 6:1-3
Alright, so this is where it started, freshman year. I was way too 'cool' to listen to my parents..when in reality..it was stupidity. Wrong friends, they lead you no where. The saying 'what you hang around, is what you become' became my reality. Swearing, became a part of my vocabulary. Drinking, sadly, was the weekend 'thing to do.' No, i never did smoke, thank God.
"Don't become partners with those who reject God. How can you make a partnership out of right and wrong? That's not partnership; that's war." - 2 Corinthians 6:14
December of freshman year, i was noticed by a junior boy. He told me everything a girl would ever want to year. At first my parents were okay with it, but secretely i kept things from them. His criminal record, his abusive habbits, and most importantly..his history with girls. We fought, like every other day. After dating hiim for about 6 months, my parents found out. Everything. They told me to stay away from him, but i was smarter than them. I 'loved' him. lol no. In reality i didnt know what love was. We dated two years, and in my mind (now that i look back on it)...those two years were straight from Hell. If a guy EVER cheats on you...leave; trust me, they'll do it again. After getting cheated on 3 times, you think i would get the hint...but i didnt.
They say, 'bad actions lead up to bad situations' and holy crap, that is soo true. I wish i could tell every teenager that making bad choices will only lead lead you to bad situations.
January 31, 2011. The day my life was changed. My eyes were opened, and i had had enough. What started as a day of shopping with my best friend and my boyfriend...ended in a nightmare. I dropped her off at her house first, then i went to take him home; when he grabbed the wheel and wouldnt let me go to his house i knew something was wrong. I parked my car on a street...and there i was 2nd Degree sexually assaulted. Saving my life, my mom called and he freaked. I owe my life to her. <3 truely. He ran to his house yelling "Dont get into too much trouble!" and left me there, alone..i thought he loved me?..guess not. I answered, trying to come up with excuses of where i had been. Trying to cover up what he did. It worked at first, but, the second i stepped into my house i broke down. Telling my parents everything, they called the cops and the next day he was arrested until the first hearing.
Guess what? They let him back in school...i was so confused, frustrated and mad.. How can you let him in the same place that im in after that. What is wrong with these people? They promised me he would stay away, but nothing was holding him back.. him getting yanked away from me by the assistant principle...was the last straw for me. I couldn'd do it anymore. That was the first day/night that i ever thought of ending my life. Therapy started, and i told her day after day i was fine. I was numb. Crying myself to sleep every night, made my parents worry. Finally, August 12, 2011. The guy i thought i loved, finally pleaded guilty. I couldnt have been happier...but even though he admitted to it...he was still free. Confusion flooded my mind. This was the third night, i considered ending my life. Which really is...three to many. No one should ever have to feel that way. Ever.
Throughout this whole mess.. I felt alone, scared, and most of all i felt numb. School, was the hardest thing i ever had to face. People calling me a liar, screaming at me in the halls, and threatening to 'beat my...butt..'.. I spent almost everyday with my coulselor crying, and wanting to go home..but i wanted to be strong for my parents, for my friends, and for my church. I couldnt let them see i was hurt..that wasnt me. But at some point, you break and everything comes out. I couldnt hold it in anymore...i had to do something. One scar on my arm shows how weak i got. I set a match on fire...blew it out..and burned my arm. No one knows this, not even my parents, and i cant believe im going to post this...but it will help someone out there.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uhOJW4Uwy3c
I found the nearest counselor at the youth retreat i was at, a beautiful woman of God, the second person i owe my life to. We prayed and prayed...for forever it felt like, i cried my eyes out and finally...i felt peace flood my mind. My life was changed for the second time in one year. Clear thoughts filled my mind. I was happy, i felt i belonged once again.
August 15, 2011...a text from an unknown number, "hey, i miss you" was in my inbox. I stared at it for almost an hour. Did this really just happen, it was him...again. I let him back in my life. I hung out with him and started dating him...again. August 28, 2011. A picture was posted on facebook of us together..my parents were devastated. He won me back. I was grounded for sooooo long after that. No phone, car, friends, anything. My life included church, school, and sleep...for 3 months. December 21, 2011. He was put in jail...locked up, i felt free. Oh how i loved my life, hes finally where he belonged. I got involved in church...2 church youth groups actually...and my life was once again, changed.
February 28, 2012...hes out of jail. Thoughts once again, brewed up...why? will this ever end? No, it wont. But im not about to let him win. I will be a successful person, nothing will hold me back. Dont worry, this time...im smart. My mind is renewed..im getting help from SO many people. Im stronger with the Lord...stronger than i've ever been. I prayed, and God set me free.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&NR=1&v=Y2HwtWLokSc
Im fresh. I wouldnt trade my life for the world. Im happy, and i am in love with my God. I turned my life over to him, and im free. I surround myself with positive influences and they help me through everything. I know i could trust them with my life.
Never let a guy, take over your life, and decide what you do/think for almost 3 years. I wish, with everything in me, i could have those years back.
To everyone who stuck by my side through the past year, you're truly my hero. If it wasnt for you, i may not be here today. I love you with all my heart, and i would do ANYTHING in this world for you. My Lord and Saviour, i love you with my whole heart. Mom and Dad, if i didnt have you...i would've been a lost puppy. You held me, loved me, calmed me down...but most importantly..you believed in me. I would like to thank my youth misister, i couldnt have made it without you..you and your wife believed in me...and supported me more than i could have ever asked for. My friends, wow...you showed how close we were/are everyday in and out of school...yelling at the people who yelled at me while i ran to get help, hugging me when i cried, and staying by my side throught everything really meant the world to me. My church family, you may not know it...but church was the one place i could go to...and let loose. I trusted all of you, and loved you.
I am a changed young adult now. I grew up fast...but im glad i did. God is amazing if you let him in your life, so do it. Dont be ashamed, cause you will never regret it. He's amazing...and he's one of the only people who will love and forgive you NO matter what you do.
You're all beautiful in my eyes, and in God's. Never.ever.ever.ever.ever.ever. let .Anyone.ever tell you different. I love you all <3 soso much.
These songs...are now my secret escape.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eAfyFTzZDMM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=776TdGu0bNo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xXJv6Fxi074&feature=related
Monday, March 12, 2012
Understandable.
"You are the light of the world, A city set on a hill cannot be hidden." - Matthew 5:14
Hidden. So many people out in this big, awful world..feel like they're hidden. Confusion is a big part of a teenagers life: What to do when you grow up, how to handle different situations, how to relate to all different things..etc. Adults, the 'older folk', may feel hidden as well: Their kids wanting nothing to do with them, money issues, jobs, etc. But to everyone who has ever felt "hidden," or ever will, there is an answer to your pain. Trust me.
"This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn't go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person's failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to him." -John 3:16-18
God didnt send his son for no reason, it's not like he was in heaven and one day the thought rose to him..'hey, imma send you to earth. haha sucka!' uhm? no. He sent his son, Jesus, to help make the world right again, so that no human would need to be destroyed. If you accept him as your saviour, you WILL have a complete, long life. Staying focused on Jesus may not always seem easy, and when you start, it's not. I'm not gonna sugar coat it for you, somedays...you will forget. Don't get down on yourself..cause guess what? We were all there at one point during our walk with Jesus. But as you start to grow as a christian, doing everything you can...it's like you need it to live.
"Look, I've written your names on the backs of my hands. The walls you're rebuilding are never out of my sight." -Isaiah 49:16
You were put on this earth to achieve your greatest self, to live out your purpose, and to do it fearlessly. God sent you here, with a plan in mind. There is always something you can be doing to achieve great things, and you will/can with God. He is always there for you, with you and supporting you. He will always love you NO MATTER what you do. He will always forgive you, and always be by your side. Loyal, huh? He's pretty amazing, and sadly, i didnt realize that till major things happened in my life where i almost didnt make it. (will be in my next blog)
Never underestimate yourself, you're amazing just the way you are.
Don't change for anyone..you were made to be you for a reason. God loves you for you. Why would you want to change the amazing person God created you to be?
You're all beautiful. In my eyes &in God's eyes. <3
Watch thiss
---> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gK92TZrE-SA
Hidden. So many people out in this big, awful world..feel like they're hidden. Confusion is a big part of a teenagers life: What to do when you grow up, how to handle different situations, how to relate to all different things..etc. Adults, the 'older folk', may feel hidden as well: Their kids wanting nothing to do with them, money issues, jobs, etc. But to everyone who has ever felt "hidden," or ever will, there is an answer to your pain. Trust me.
"This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn't go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person's failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to him." -John 3:16-18
God didnt send his son for no reason, it's not like he was in heaven and one day the thought rose to him..'hey, imma send you to earth. haha sucka!' uhm? no. He sent his son, Jesus, to help make the world right again, so that no human would need to be destroyed. If you accept him as your saviour, you WILL have a complete, long life. Staying focused on Jesus may not always seem easy, and when you start, it's not. I'm not gonna sugar coat it for you, somedays...you will forget. Don't get down on yourself..cause guess what? We were all there at one point during our walk with Jesus. But as you start to grow as a christian, doing everything you can...it's like you need it to live.
"Look, I've written your names on the backs of my hands. The walls you're rebuilding are never out of my sight." -Isaiah 49:16
You were put on this earth to achieve your greatest self, to live out your purpose, and to do it fearlessly. God sent you here, with a plan in mind. There is always something you can be doing to achieve great things, and you will/can with God. He is always there for you, with you and supporting you. He will always love you NO MATTER what you do. He will always forgive you, and always be by your side. Loyal, huh? He's pretty amazing, and sadly, i didnt realize that till major things happened in my life where i almost didnt make it. (will be in my next blog)
Never underestimate yourself, you're amazing just the way you are.
Don't change for anyone..you were made to be you for a reason. God loves you for you. Why would you want to change the amazing person God created you to be?
You're all beautiful. In my eyes &in God's eyes. <3
Watch thiss
---> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gK92TZrE-SA
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